I'm leaving again...

Lord willing I'll be back in December. But I'm so scared right now. In an hour I'll drive to the airport and depart at midnight. Unfortunately I won't have a window seat, so I can't watch my beautiful city from above. I'm scared and I don't have the strength to keep me from crying. I already miss my family and my best friend, and I regret not doing much quality time this summer. I wish I could have more time: to spend with my family, to grow as a Christian here, to talk with my best friend.

I don't want to go back, but I know I have to leave. It's just two more years. And I know my friends will be there waiting for me and will welcome me with open arms. And they really are such a blessing to me. But no matter what, God and family comes first. When push comes to shove, I know they'll always be there for me. And I don't want to leave them, I love them too much to want to leave.

Just two more years. God has always been there for me, even when I couldn't see it. I can't ever forget that. I must always lean on Him, never forget Him when things are going well, always remember the blessings He has brought me, and never forget the love He has for me.

So I guess this is goodbye for now. I still have a lot of learning to do and even more growing to do.

                            Learning and Walking in Christ,
                                                                                      Ankoru

Why must I always fail?!

Well as you can probably guess, I'm failing in that weight loss challenge. I believe I have gained weight instead. No surprise there.

Not just that, but I'm feeling so lazy right now and I have no motivation to even do much needed tasks to prepare for the upcoming semester. These are essential for my survival and have to last me until I come back home.

Must get up and be productive.... Where there's a will, there's a way.... But I don't have a will....

Oh and a couple of days ago was my birthday. I'm now 21 and still lazy. I'll be quick, we didn't really celebrate my birthday on the actual day. But on my actual birthday I got the season 2 DVD of BBC's Sherlock, which will come in handy for my sanity's survival. The next day we got cake, but had to postpone eating it because we had to celebrate my birthday at my grandma's house alongside my relatives. After that we finally got to eat my delicious cake, but celebrating my birthday doesn't end there. The next day I get to spend time with my best friend of almost 17 years. She took me out to eat and we went to the Santa Monica Promenade and Pier. We were just walking and it was mostly waiting in line for something but I'm still glad I got to spend time with her. Celebrating my birthday for three days wasn't what I thought it would be, nothing special.

Alright that's it. I'm tired of being lazy, I need to change. If I'm an adult, that means I have to make responsible decisions and see what I can do to better myself. I'm going to make a schedule and to-do-list, watch an episode from Sherlock, and go to sleep early. Or earlier than when I usually sleep. Let the transformation commence. No one will recognize this ping pong.

Silence! I'm finally using gifs.